My Tribute To Breastfeeding | McLachlan Studios
When I became pregnant with Owen I didn’t ask nearly enough questions about breastfeeding before he was born. I guess I just assumed that since it was natural that it would be easy. I couldn’t have been more wrong. Breastfeeding is tough, painful and sometimes very discouraging. However it does get better in time. Something I didn’t give when I first started to breastfeed him. I made it two weeks before I threw in the towel. I felt so much pressure and so over whelmed. I had always felt guilt since that day for stopping to soon and not giving it more time. He was however a better bottle formula fed baby, who would drink gallons a day!
With time I became a little older, wiser, more patient & I became more apparent of the value. I knew that the second time around I would give it my all. Like before it was tough, everyday was a struggle in the beginning. Painful, cracked nipples. Milk filling up. The after effects of labour. Exhaustion. Emotions. All a recipe for me wanting to give up… again. But I didn’t, I pushed through the restless days & nights. Every doctor visit gave me hope with the weigh in’s. Realizing how much she’s gained, felt so empowering to the point of tears.
Her precious moments would always make those stressful times magically disappear. When her sweet hands would play with my hair or she would wrap her arms around my neck. And her soft blue eyes watching me until she feel into a deep sleep into my arms. The stress, fear, panic, doubt and worries would be gone. It would be just me & her connected in the moment of pure bliss.
Initially, my goal was to make it to 1 year. I did it!! Once Ella turned 1 it was back to work for me and she started daycare. As much as I thought I would wean her then, I just couldn’t. She wouldn’t let me and I didn’t want her to go through any more stress added on top of everything else going on then. It of course slowed down a lot. Now I really know its coming to an end. With longer gaps in between feedings, now to only once a day. It’s coming to an end and on her time.
These photos are a reminder to me, of these moments and how I totally crushed my exhausting yet powerful goal. I felt extremely comfortable with my dear friend Kaylyn McLachlan who captured these moments for me. I went down both roads with my babies and I came out with the same outcome, a growing, happy precious baby who adored me!
“A baby nursing at a mother’s breast… is an undeniable affirmation of our rootedness in nature.” David Suzuki
Keisha Lynne, xx