A mother’s guilt is tough, it’s raw and it’s draining. It sometimes consumes us and it can also be a friendly reminder that we’re good mothers, even when we think we’re not. I’m very guilty of feeling guilty. Even though I know I’m a good mom. I often still find myself doubting my parenting because of this Mom Guilt thing.
I have been back to work since November and as much as I love being back, it’s also been a challenge transitioning. I use to think that it was hard when when it was only Owen. Organizing daycare, school pick ups, drop off’s, the house, work and don’t even get me started on sleep. I thought I knew what sleep deprivation was before HA. I laugh at that one. There’s a lot that I’m missing since being back to work like school trips, volunteering, sending Owen off to school and picking him up, the one on one time during the day with Ella. It can be a tough pill to swallow dropping her off at daycare. Of course I feel the daily guilt that I’m not so easily available like I use to be. But I also remind myself that in the long run my kids will thank me later. They will understand and hopefully appreciate everything Drew and I do for them. Teaching them independence, responsibility and the value of a dollar. All the hard work we do pays off more than just financially!
In reality, I know there’s no such thing as a perfect parent. But why do we set such high standards to be so called ‘Perfect Moms’? We do so much and still feel at the end of the day like we’re the only ones who failed. We beat ourselves up over the littlest things. I can do a million perfect things in a day and find out Owen’s behind in reading and I beat myself up over it. We’re always trying to be superhero’s, true fact, we’re not. We’re only human with incredibly cute kids. We need to remind ourselves that we can’t do everything, it’s not possible to do everything and stay sane. You could try and to it all but be warned, prepare to become insane!
Eventually we will find our balance. So far it’s been a team effort and I’m proud of what we’ve done so far. As for myself, I’m taking control over that mom guilt. I take it and turn it into something positive and remind myself daily that it’s just me being a good parent. To all you moms cheers to you, you work hard and your limits are tested daily. You take on a lot in one day. Just remember your a damn good mom! Despite what you may think some days..